To take a moment and look back over the years and have your heart wrench because you didn't love enough, weren't strong enough to take care of the precious hearts that were entrusted to your care, to realize how much more you could have given and done?
Sometimes as I sit here, words just scream out to be heard. Sometimes, you just have to realize that it is ok to sit amongst the pain, to be exhausted from the journey, to be heartbroken over the "could have beens and should have beens" and to long for the dream that is just beyond the reach of your fingertips. Just on occasion you allow yourself to sit and cry with loneliness, sorrow, and longing.
As I sit here, the very depths of my soul cry for pure love, peace, and the dream I dream of.
I have a choice....it is mine alone. I can choose to allow myself to stay in this place or I can choose to run to the One who is hope, who brings me love, who brushes away the bruises and tears with healing, and who never leaves me alone.
So I will run into His arms, sit in His lap, and pour my heart into His. And when the tears have stopped, utter love and peace will be mine in the quiet of the storm. The Father will usher in all that my heart needs and cries for and in His presence is the warmth of a light that can never be dim.
Words convey a gamete of feelings yet leave so much untouched/unsaid. How I long for the day when the fetters of our humanness fall away and I can worship our Lord God in fullness. To ascribe all glory and honor to the One who sits above the circle of the earth.
So I bow my head and my heart in humble adoration and thankfulness for an abiding relationship that brings forgiveness and strength for a new day. To be filled with peace and love and renewed through Him.
Smiles abound as I enter another day with joy......
